So I am back now I guess, yeah?
I have learned some things about life, and myself, and people. Some good, some bad, some in between.
Life? Its never what you expect….its not a game, or a journey, or anything but a mission. We all have a mission. Its great if we can figure it out before we die.
Me? I am one angry woman. Scary full of fury. But as much as I am a a furious bitch with a hellfire temper, well, hate…not the impersonal kind, but the personal kind, which used to be so easy for me, is getting harder. I made a hobby out of driving, burning, murderous hate, heck, it kept me alive. I will say honestly, I thought of myself for a long time as a monster, I would be the everything horrible everyone thought me to be, and I did prove myself to be very adept at that, I was GOOD at it, and I will even admit, I liked it…but I am not sure I am really That Thing Anymore. I still have a Bite and Smirk, but….that’s is all a part of me for sure, but it is not ALL of me.
People and I…that is the hard one. My brain works a bit different, and I am always fascinated, not always nicely so, about how others work. I have done very very nasty things not only trying to see how they work, but trying to see how I am different or could make me be the same….there IS a reason I like Sylar so much. But I am finally starting to realize….okay, so I am off, its not anyone’s fault, persay, I just am. I may never get it, ever. But I don’t need to get others, and really, others don’t need to get me…we’re all still here , right? I WANT to know, but it doesn’t matter if I ever really do, right?
I reckon that is a start.
Welcome to my latest evolution.
I am No Longer a Sex Worker, and have no desire to ever go back to it, but believe it is a far more complex issue than anyone will ever know unless they’ve done it.
Still a gamer, though they are killing City Of
Still like my guns.
Still love gumbo, and Sylar, and the Comedian, and Dean Winchester, and Tucker & Dale….
and I leave you with this….
THE ORIGINAL 80’s VERSION!
i so did always love this song, imagine that?