Archive for January, 2012


MY theme song….and its…happy!  From a band I grew up on, and it sooo fits!!!!  They even talk about fire!


you know what I think is in order now, soon, what I look like….now.  All 5’2″ maybe 90 pounds half dead of me!   HAHAHAHA, I look like my zombie, but still..alive!!!!

hell yeah!

and yes its me, and yes any art in it i drew and yes the six armed Kali naga drawing is my back tattoo and yes, i  did make her look scrawny like me!!!!  And yes, I look vastly different with red, black and blonde hair… blonde bad, red or black okay, even black and pink and white dreads!  And do not ask about my Agent Smith obsession, just…don’t!


Posted: January 27, 2012 in Uncategorized


yes yes yes, and cheers!! YES YES YES!

That’s right…

Posted: January 24, 2012 in Sports

Eli, I feel the same way about the Patriots!  So go  Giants!

So, because people have asked…

Posted: January 18, 2012 in Politics

Why isn’t Ren blogging about SOPA and screaming her head off in protest?

Um, because Ren doesn’t oppose SOPA.  Shocking?  Well, it shouldn’t be.  At all.  Really…think on that for a moment before bitting my head off.  Why would *I* oppose it?


So, Gratz to

Posted: January 16, 2012 in Sports

The Giants, 49ers, and Ravens…


but not to the Pats…I cannot forgive that kind of public humilation!  Gahhh whine.  I even painted my dang nails orange and blue, but alas, not enough Mojo!

So I am rooting for the Giants now.  I like Eli.  AVENGE ME, ELI!!!!

Ramble on…

Posted: January 13, 2012 in Personal

In case I’ve not mentioned, I have…bronchitis, and a sinus infection, and well, insomia by nature, plus the cough, which makes me legally insane plus annoyed and with lots of time to think…hence the title, LZ ode to, of this post….

Oft times I am very serious, oft times not

What do I want right now? The Broncos to win an SB so I can get my brother whom I love more than….gah….a 1968 gto…a tattoo…he has none, I have 13, for THAT we go together and bond.   Not to be sick.  To get in a GOOD fight.  More ink, 4 horsemen, on my ribs, fitting, no?  Shooting with Rootie, then cooking with Rootie.  Drinking with Gin.  Clubs with Apasia.  Spooking Joans rents.  Writing with Cervantes.,,oh god, playing tennis with Vlad!!!  Oh My, INK WITH KIM  ( I so miss her)


Till I get back, and I do mean in all ways,i will take LZ’s acvice and ramble on


I’ll sing my song!


(karma, i swear, i was like unkillabe for..36 years?)

I have a few:


#1:  Pink Floyd, The Wall  – sorry, its true, ya don’t like?  Fuck you  🙂

#2: Siousxsie & The Banshees, Juju

#3: NIN, Year Zero

# 4: Korn, Issues

#5: Ozzy, Bark at the Moon  (sorry, its an inner werewolf thing  lol)

#6: Duran Duran, Duran Duran

and I can listen to Johnny Cash and/or Led Zepplin  ALL DAY, EVERY DAY.  (Ask Shen)


So, what are your essentials?


Posted: January 9, 2012 in Blogging, Humans

So, I’ve been neglecting blog world here lately, due to everything from illness to meh, other shit to do, NFL, guns, blah blah blah….and cause it is Netganistan, you KNOW as soon as you leave shit will blow right the fuck up…

and so it has again, and so I been catching up, and it’s interesting because three people I got right here on my own blog roll are well, from engraged at/to less than thrilled/ to WTF with eachother.  Gin, Hugo, and Joan.  And I feel like I should say some shit, just cause…

I got all three of em on my blog roll for a reason.  I never agree with any one of em 100%, and never disagree with any one of em 100%.  Gin is the only one I know in RL, but I have talked to both Joan and Hugo, and promised Joan I would drag my gun nut self out to CA to scare her family for her one day…(long story).  But this recent blow up has me thinking about a lot of shit….

Wierd shit.  Very, very wierd shit.  And things like “privilege” and violence and crap o’ that nature.  Now, see, Joan here just knocked my dang boots off with being, IMHO, very brave…and saying some real truth.  I sort of feel like, as a person who has oh, had violence and hurt done to me, but also handed out my own fair share of that shit, it is never on the person who dished it out to say when things might be Okay or Forgiven.  One can come to  terms with themself and the wrongs they have done….but anything else?  That has to be given.  That is not something an aggressor can just give to themself and say “its okay, I changed, it’s all better now.”  Because nothing is EVER ALL BETTER, and only the wronged party can decide when its “okay” and things are…well, good enough.   And therein lies the difference between folk like me, I guess, and say, Hugo.  I don’t hate Hugo, not at all.  Not in the least.  But…well, as a person who has done some shady shit myself, sober and not, emotional harm and physical violence and all that crap…well, I can and have come to terms with my own shit, and I can live with who and what I am and what I have done…but it ain’t all good, and no one has to forgive me for it, and I sure as shit am in no position to ask them too, nor act like things are all okay and dandy because you know what?  Straight up, I fucked wth some other folk and sure enough, they are human and it hurts and affects them and that is not just…okay..or excusable…even with excuses (I was drunk, tweaking, sleep deprived, I’m an anti-social, blah blah blah blah…SO WHAT?) Can I live with the fact that I can be a real piece of work and have certainly done others wrong-without sugar coating it?  Yep.  Do I think that’s okay or that those folk I have wronged should forgive me because well, I’ve evolvoed or changed or would prolly not do the same shit unto them again?  Fuck No.  And that’s not now nor will it ever be my call to make.

And I also gotta say, when I feel I have been wronged, or treated unfairly… hell, Gin and Joan could attest to this…I tend to, oh snap back.  And go for the kidney shot.  I am, by nature, when I feel hurt or wronged, mean.  But…I am quick to forgive.  Forget?  Never, hell, I am a Scorpio- we never forget, but forgive, yeah…which is good, or chances are…well, I wouldnt KNOW people like Gin and Joan- but you know what?  Only Gin and I could agree to bury our hatchet and love on the Zombies, and only Joan and I could agree to let shit slide and be friends….No one else, not anyone from “my side” who may have hurt them, or “their side” who may have hurt me could make those decisions for us.  And hell, we all took some shit for doing so…and apparently we call all live with that- but it was our decision, as mutally aggressive folk and mutally hurt folk…to make.

No one else could do that- just us.

One can learn to live with bad shit they’ve done….but no one can do the forgiving except the wronged party.  And to me, that just seems like common basic knowledge.

*as for the privilege thing…I can tell ya, I have pulled some shit that well, if I wasn’t a short white gal?  It sure as shit woulda landed my ass in a jail cell!  And yep, I absolutely recognize that!


**and Gin, I forgive you for not liking Tebow, but I am still gonna wear my Tebow Jersey!


Posted: January 9, 2012 in Sports, Uncategorized

My neighbors now think I am truly insane…..


But yes, in the epic battle of good vs. evil….Tebow vs. Ben, who should be in prison….GOOD PREVAILS  (and spikes my blood pressure)….OT VICTORY- DENVER BRONCOS!  AUGHHHHH WOOT!